SAd weekend..week...... :(

I have a lot of mixed emotions i don;t know what to think of. I don't know what to think. I know i just have cried a few times here and there. It really doesn;t feel like christmas right now w all the stuff that is going on w us right now. This time of year is about making happy memories, well at least we try. I have thought a lot about Christ this month and remember Christ in Christmas, especaiily the last few days. I have thought about all the gifts we have been given spiritually and how we can regift those gifts w others. and sharing our love. It makes me sad when so many people say they just can;t wait till this month was over when to me i wish it was a month longer. I love the pretty lights, cute decorations, christmas songs, christmas crafts, Christmas candy making, wrapping Christmas presents and making them pretty( i am a pro wrapper) skipping along to the christmas spirit in my heart. I love singing Christmas songs. It would be so fun to me to go Christmas caroling But most of all spending time together as a family on Christmas. i also have mixed emotions from Christmas last year, Which i think it can't get any worse right. I am trying to decide weather the heartless jerk gave me a gift w that blow he delivered to me, right before Christmas. Cause i am 100Xs happier than i ever remember! My sister is not well right now and i know in time it will get better. Please pray for her(Rebecca). Even thought she doesn;t see this...I love you Rebecca!!!! :((((

Thanksgiving 2010

So I did help w some stuff. I seasoned the turkey and put it in the bag and finished the potatoes. My Brother Brent and his Girl friend(Gaylene) came over. There was also my mom, me, Rebecca, matt and gayle came w her 4 kids.I forgot to take pics this day. We ate dinner, which was really nice to just spend a low key relaxed time together as a family. And we played Phase Ten which is our favorite family game. Well we really played phase 5 cause i had to go to bed. Which I should have been in bed at 6 and i didn't get to bed till 7 and i had to work the next day at 345am yes i said Am. For a bit people kept being to noisey and i was all stressed over having to get up early. That as the time went on i got more stressed catch 22. So in the end i got no sleep i am not kidding i didn;t sleep at all. I was really tired that day. But oh well. I made it. I am so greatful for so many things. I am greatfull for family and friends. Love you all!!!! I didn't take any pics forgot.

faith

"The Winter Quarters Temple property adjoins the burial ground of many who gave their lives for this cause which they regarded as more precious than life itself. Their journey to the valley of the Great Salt Lake is an epic without parallel. The suffering they endured, the sacrifices they made, became the cost of what they believed."I have in my office a small statue of my own pioneer grandfather burying beside the trail his wife and her brother who died on the same day. He then picked up his infant child and carried her to this valley."Faith? There can be no doubt about it. When doubts arose, when tragedies struck, the quiet voice of faith was heard in the stillness of the night as certain and reassuring as was the place of the polar star in the heavens above."It was this mysterious and wonderful manifestation of faith that brought reassurance, that spoke with certainty, that came as a gift from God concerning this great latter-day work. Countless, literally countless, are the stories of its expression in the pioneer period of the Church. But it does not stop there."As it was then, so it is today. This precious and marvelous gift of faith, this gift from God our Eternal Father, is still the strength of this work and the quiet vibrancy of its message. Faith underlies it all. Faith is the substance of it all. Whether it be going into the mission field, living the Word of Wisdom, paying one's tithing, it is all the same. It is the faith within us that is evidenced in all we do." Gordon B. Hinckley, "The Miracle of Faith," Ensign, May 2001, 68

thanksgiving 2010

I was still so sick this day as i was sent home early from work the day before. I decided i needed it to be a day of rest for me. I felt bad but i didn;t help prepare much of the food. I just stayed in bed. I knew i couldn't miss the next day of work and i had to work the next day a ten hour shift. plus lunch so i would be there i knew 11hrs and also knowing it was going to be the busiest day of the year too.(Ya go JENN sold over 6000 dollars that day!!!!!!) Okay i rock, year to date i am 154% of my goal for the year. and 190% in credit, i just suck in IPT( Items per transaction) and AS(average Sale). So my goal is for the rest of this month& next, finishing off the year to focus on IPT and AS...Oh opps this was supposed to be about thanksgiving..

BSU vs. Fresno Nov 19th

Me and Trina went to the BSU vs. Fresno state game. One of my co workers has family seasons tickets and she asked if i want two of her tickets for the game. She just gave them to me which was so nice. So i took Trina. I went home from work and got all dressed in my bsu gear & warm clothes(layers). I still didn't have a coat than so i had to just take one in the closet i could find( don;t worry i now have a coat). It had been raining all day and the seats were in the upper section. We got there about an hour late. I had to go pick her up from work after i went home. Trina is one of my single friends its nice to have single friends you can find things in common w. But not saying that i don't love my married friends. I sure do!!! Actually my BFF Jennifer was at the same game and we were texting each other across the field, lol! She was on the other side from us. We were on Southeast side. I got some kettle corn( i Love Kettle corn and popcorn), and Hot cocoa as it was so cold. Lucky i brought blankets and Nicki gave me more blankets too. The game was a bore i will say as we blew them out of the water. But we has tons of fun that night. Thanks Nicki! But shame on me cause i was still sick when i went! Oh well! Only game i would have gotten to go to this year. Oops camera was on zoom.

Primary Program

We had our Primary program in the middle of Nov or first week now i don;t remember. We had practiced in the chapel the week before, the sat before which we had a breakfast and feed all the kids pancakes. It is amazing how it seems like oh no we need more time to practice but than the day of the kids just pull it together and it was beautiful. I was really sick this day, i got my sunbeams on the stand they were just standing by the podium in front of the bishop. I helped them w their parts when the time came and me not feel well almost feel over when i was helping them w their parts how embarrassing was that since i was right in front of the bishop. Like really i barely caught myself w my hand. Lucky are our part i took the kids down to the front row in the pews and i had to sit w 8-10 kids age 3-4 but lucky i had someone to help me, during the rest of the program. I have been pondering a lot what my calling is going to teach me in my life or purpose, i read an article in a past ensign about a story where a lady later on found out why she was called to the position at one point in her life. So i asked this question right there on the day of the program as i am sitting w like i think it was 8 kids, in my head. I won;t tell you what i asked. I am not sure if i am crazy. all of a sudden i got this buring feeling/overwhelming sensation and i was only joking on the question i asked. I am thinking are you crazy, what. I decided to forget about it and not worry about it cause if it is really so has nothing to do w me right now, and maybe i was just crazy, that day i was sick, lol!

illness

In the beginning of Nov i got really sick, went to the doc and i had a sinus infection(which i had one in Oct also) and Bronchitis and i had Laryngitis really bad, so bad the doc told me i couldn't go to work or talk to people at all. I missed a bunch of work but not all together. i was on Antibiotics, i was getting better voice came back but i started to get sicker, the doc put me on another Antibiotic which helped the infection go away and i felt much better i had a bad cough for a while and took till the end of last week to finally go away for the most part. I still have some congestion in my nose and only a little cough here and there. I even had a fever at one point. I don;t think i have been that sick in a super long time. I usually get really sick but than it goes away really fast. But this just dragged on. So i bought some vitamins.