Thursday, May 15, 2014

The same diagnosis

In April 2012 I had surgery (major surgery) to repair a diaphragmatic hernia. Two months later(June) I had surgery to remove my gallbladder, laparoscopic. Which was a piece of cake to the first one. After that I got pregnant and had Faith on March 26th 2013. In the fall of 2013 I started to notice I was in pain in my abdomen. I am pretty tough and usually just suck it up. It takes me a lot to go to the ER. I went to the ER in September. After different test they told me nothing was wrong. Around the end of March I noticed I was starting to have pain in my abdomen. But it wasn't unbearable and it came and went. By the end of April it got really bad. Finally on April 27 I went to the ER agian. They made me feel like it was all in my head and there was nothing wrong w me. You start to almost believe it but you know you really hurt. They told me all my test came back normal and they were discharging me w ulcers. My CT came back after this. The Dr mentioned something about a diaphragmatic hernia and told me I should go follow up w my surgeon. My appointment was Tuesday. They told me everything that was on the report from the radiologist. In September there was an opening in my diaphragm but only fat was through it. Now I actually have a diaphragmatic hernia( which is the colon through the diaphragm). My surgeon wasn't sure if the mesh tore from my last surgery or it's new(he hadn't seen the imaging, yet). Possible reasons are pregnancy causing a wear on my body either re opening or new, or when I fell down the stairs last year. What's next? An upper endoscopy on May 27th to check for anything else, than deciding on surgery. 😒 my pain comes and goes because when the colon slips out I feel okay but when it goes back through the hole I feel horrible. I haven't felt that great all night. Good news is I am not crazy I have answers and a wonderful loving husband.

Monday, May 12, 2014

It's been 1 year today.

           Today is one year since my sweet grandma past away. She past away on Mothers day last year. This is a really emotional one for me. Not sure i can write this. There was one thing I wanted. I prayed that she would live long enough to see and know that i had a child. I remember when we took Faith to see her in the nursing home. She wasn't always w it, but she knew who you were. she said" this is your baby" "you had a baby" "she is a doll, she is a doll". I could see how happy she was for me.(i don't think i have a picture w her and Faith, wish i did.)

           She was such a dear sweet grandma i was close too. I wouldn't be where i am at today, if it wasn't for her.(I knew the tears would come). I know she is so happy right now. She is w my grandpa and our Savior. I am so happy for the Plan of Salvation. Having the knowledge that i can be w her again one day. I am so thankful for families and the sealing power, to be sealed as a family.

Grandpa and Grandma Pearman in Hawaii
Grandma at the Koga's house.
Grandma Pearman holding my niece Cali @ the hospital.
Such a cute couple. Look what is in her hand. She loved to talk on the phone, she was a social butterfly.
She is beautiful!
My sister holding her sweet hand before she past away.

I love you Grandma!